Friday, January 04, 2019

HAPPY NEW 2019!


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Sher is home, home, home!  Today (1-4-2019) she's working on her house, Glen Cottage.  Moving furniture around in that tine space, but it'll look like a doll house once she's finished.  She spent the night with us the first and second, her house last night, and is working into the evening today.  The two nights she was here we watched two slapstick funny movies - I sorely need the belly laughs and realize how good it is to watch a funny movie with someone who gets as tickled as me!  "Planes, Trains and Automobiles," Steve Martin and John Candy; "Christmas Vacation," Chevy Chase, Randy Quaid.  I'd already watched both of them in the last couple of weeks.  We also got caught up on "The Young and the Restless," her soap, her escape from reality after a day's work.  She's been watching it 40 years.  Everyone has been married to everyone else at least once.  Now Nicki is in a coma in the hospital...  I could accidentally get interested in it if I let myself.  For a while, she'll be here occasionally to catch up since she won't have TV service for a bit.

Yesterday I lost my mind temporarily over getting locked out of my ATT account.  Long story.  But I got an appointment for this morning and the young man got it all fixed up again.  Love tech when it works, go insane when it doesn't.  Paul and I also went to Wally World for coffee, peanut butter, chips, tomatoes, onions, etc. Some items for the Welcome Home/Retirement party for Sher Sunday.  Family invited; hamburgers, hot dogs.  Marsha's bringing potato salad; I'll open a couple big cans of baked beans.  

New Year's Eve Paul and I went to Tommy and Carol's for NYE party.  So much fun - played games (Apples to Apples and a pictionary version of gossip).  Laughed so much.  See my rose cheeks?  I look so like my cousin Patsy here.  Carol on the left, Sandra on the right.  David in the far right background.

I got my 2017-2018 blog ordered today.  I hardly wrote in 2017 and not as much as usual last year.

Something I wrote around Thanksgiving.  One of my bad days, but goals to try for. I've already blown a lot of them.  But I've also done several!

Increasingly carrying around the weight of an Old Woman who is trying to obliterate the real me. Pain, fatigue and a bad attitude, critical and sometimes blasphemous thought life are what I carry around like a weight attached to my back, legs, neck, brain, body. Instead of using good energy for productive things, mine is used so often for keeping the Old Woman under control. She is so heavy, sad, critical, unhelpful, doubtful, even very lazy at times, undecided and forgetful. A sour heart at times. I say I won’t give up. Give up what? She is a formidable enemy. How can I think “creatively” when all I think about is how to make the pain stop, how to keep up with necessary duties, household chores, being with people, how much she will allow me to do, if I’ll get a fair to good night’s sleep? Measuring my energy out in spoonfuls. Socializing is exhausting at times. Wondering how long I’m able to stay up, how far I can travel, how often I can commit. Lights and noise bombard the Old Woman making it impossible to go to a movie theater. Bitterness is always ready to rear it’s ugly head with sharp and sarcastic words. Self criticism and being critical and short tempered with Paul especially.

What can I do?

Pray
Be in God’s Word
Meditate
Stop apologizing
Give my bitterness to God, who wants it (imagine that. But it’s true)
Ask Him for transitional/accepting grace.
Do what I can and stop worrying and fretting over what I can’t
Stop expecting ppl to understand unless they have been there
Don’t list complaints to everyone
Create-sew, draw, color, paint, play with paper, scrapbook, take pictures, do calligraphy, free motion quilting, Farmers Wife
Read good books, all the ones I missed, re-read others I loved as a child
Exercise as much as possible
Eat more healthy
Take Advil if I need and stop worrying about side effects
Drink water
Stop fighting something for nerves & take it before my legs and back spasms (sleeplessness) makes me cry and frantic
Declutter
Watch funny movies
Be my own person and don’t compare
Be thankful
Do something for someone even a card often
Stay off iPhone more
Don’t listen to “news”
Enjoy nature even from my windows
Listen to music
Grieve when necessary but don’t stay in it
Be thankful for what I did have and what I still have
Write, journal
Stay in touch with old friends
Love my family
Push through the tiredness when I can but know when to rest and know it’s okay to do both

So we are blessed to be here in this new year.  Look for the "wonder."  Be thankful.  These other things, too, shall pass.  If this year flies by like 2018...

This is January 4, Goobie's birthday - 1900.  I imagine she thought how fast the years passed, too.

Wednesday, December 26, 2018

THE DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS AND ALL THROUGH THE HOUSE

We napped - I woke up at 2:30 and couldn't go back to sleep.  Paul has a scratchy throat.  Oscar is resting up from Dexter being here and all the activity.  Lucy and Thelma ventured to the back door - Dexter, their nemesis, has gone home.

Busy three days.  Sunday Christmas dinner at Mike and Marsha's.  I got a  smoked turkey breast at Brooks; it was wonderful.  It's so big though, we ate about 2/3, I brought the rest of that side home and left the other side with Marsha.  Tender, smoked just right.

Monday - rested a good bit.  Amy came home late that night.

Tuesday, Christmas day - breakfast at Sandra and David's. Talked to Sher; she went to movie as is her custom - Mary Poppins.  Has turned all her TV, phone service disconnected but can use guest wifi till she leaves.  just a little over 2 more days for her.

Wednesday, rested a good bit.  Still in pjs.  Have not combed my hair, had eggs for brunch; fiddled with Christmas pictures and other odds and ends on computer.  Like the wind has gone out of the balloon.  It's overcast and had rained some last night, but about 45 degrees.

Oh - Sunday - mine and Paul's 50th anniversary!!  Sunday School and church (learned that Joy and Ben's anniversary is same day/year as ours).  Cantata during worship service - so pretty.  Afterward Paul and I went to the front and stood for a little while, a quick kiss, same place we started out 50 years ago.

Good Christmas dinner - roast; Charlotte came.  Then we opened gifts and Paul hit the jackpot with Dallas Cowboys shirts.  Matt got me a pretty necklace; Amy - pretty sparkly earrings.  They liked their Smartwool socks and scarf.  They left about 7:30 and Paul and I waited up till she let us know they were home.

I was blessed with energy during the holidays and am thankful.  I think I need another nap soon.






















At Mike and Marsha's Sunday.











Christmas Breakfast Tuesday at David and Sandra's.

Jae (plaid shirt) and Jess (left) had to leave just after breakfast.  She's working night shift at the hospital and had only had an hour's rest before coming to her dad's.  She looked pale and tired.  






It's red checked shirt day again!







Billy and Jenni; David, Carol, Paul, Marianna, Amy, Tommy, Matt.  Sandra and I are in front.  

Sher will be here in a week!  And for two weeks, then to Melanie's for about 2 weeks also check on her house in PC; then here for  as long as she wants to be in a teeny tiny town after DC!  She may be a snowbird, spending winters in PC.  But it'll be nice having her near.  She's going to give me art lessons.  

A scary thing happened to Dexter (Amy's dog) the night of the 21st I think - he had a seizure; she took him to the animal hospital and they kept him overnight.  His blood work was fine; it could be a one time occurence or it could be onset of epilepsy.  (Jenni, the vet in our family) said he was a little old to have that; it may have been caused by stress even.  He was fine here all weekend.  Love that little bit.  

Amy and Matt liked the T shirts with Oscar's picture on the front I had made for them. River Raggs did a quick and good job!

Friday, December 21, 2018

CHECKING IT TWICE

I have to have a list to function properly.  So far I've been to the 20th Century Club girls' lunch, book club party (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn), delivered Amy's gifts to my Sunday School class, and we went to Shiloh's 3rd birthday party.  This week the only thing is taking Oscar to vet to check his eyes.  And Char is coming this afternoon.

I've been tinkering with my old JV boombox trying to figure out why the CD player has quit.  It's only 23 years old.


So Oscar's eyes are better - he is "tearing" much better because of the eye drops.  His Cushing's is unchanged. 


Charlotte and I had a great visit and plan to have more to have devotionals.


I found someone in Rienzi (not terribly far from here, near Corinth) to look at the old JVC.  After Christmas.


Only 2 gifts remain undelivered - Paul's Duluth Trading shirts and a Bonnie Tyler I got for him since the one he had is lost and there are a gazillion I'd have to check the cases for double occupancy. 


Today I'm working on a sign for Sher's Welcome Home/Happy Retirement. 


I made Earline (Char's mom in assisted living) a pillow case.  Will try to get it to her by New Year's Eve. 


Leah was here today to clean, which is always wonderful.  I keep up laundry, bed changing, what bit of cooking I do, the pets. But thank goodness for her doing the vacuuming and mopping! 


But sleep... last night was pretty good.  Night before was wonderful because I took medicine for it.  I just don't like to every night.  When I get up my neck hurts so bad - arthritis - Paul can massage it and I nearly come out of my skin.  And it makes me feel so weak. 


I AM thankful for just being able to sit here and do this blog.  Work on a poster.  Make a pillow case.  Get ready for Christmas.  But, oh, how wonderful it would be to feel like me again - regular old tired, not tired all over 90% of the time.  Fibro.  Blood pressure.  So much stuff in the brew that I swim around in.  But God is good.  I choose to believe that.  Everything may not go just like I want, but He is unchangeable and I can depend on His provision. 


So Paul reminded David and Tommy to wear their red checked shirts Tuesday.  One of them missed it last year.  But they look so "cute" - three brothers in their red checks.  My contribution is Powell's sausage which we have plenty of.


Hopefully Amy will be here Sunday.  We're supposed to go to Mike and Marsha's for Christmas lunch and give the kids their gifts.  I ordered a smoked turkey breast to take.  Pick up Saturday evening.  How does that work?  Surely not heat up.  I don't like the taste of heated poultry or really any kind of meat. 


So a few pictures of the last few days.  I need to have many more printed as I've been doing.  I haven't in some time.  Just haven't taken that many photos like I used to.  Soon be time to have this little book printed, too.


Thanksgiving 2018

My beautiful Amy - and Dexter!


Sherron's retirement party December 7, 2018 at the Pentagon.  So proud of my sister.










Shiloh's 3rd birthday party.  


The quilt I made her.  She has a sister on the way; I think I know what I'll use for that quilt.


Had no idea what Baby Shark was - a cartoon show kids watch now.  


Our tree we I finally got up.
Borrowed from Erica - Odin wasn't sure about Santa!

But Kiley was okay.

Tuesday, a little shy.

Xander wanted absolutely none of him!

Lucy enjoying the clamshell quilt and tree.  Neither cat bothers the tree.

20th Century Club party at Lil Smokies.


Items we brought for women's shelter.

All but Sandy and Cindy were here.

Of course we had to have some fun with it!




Did get the captions on!